It's crazy. Yes, Max knows that a lot of his fears and thoughts are misguided, but he's just feeling so overwhelmed by everything at once that he needs someone solid to talk to, and the most solid and grounded person he knows is Kyle. Maybe it's always been Kyle. He's always been the person who seems like he's had everything under control.
He enjoys showing Kyle the little life he's got carved out in Duplicity. His small slice of happiness here-- he hopes.
Falling into Kyle's arms, Max relaxes and brushes their noses together tenderly, kissing him here and there. "I don't know, I think I can just sit here and relax now, nothing much matters any more." He chuckled quietly between them. "Come lets lay on the bed and I'll talk. No reason to be uncomfortable while I spill my guts."
Max flips on the fireplace. The heatwave is mostly gone, and he's got the air down. Besides it's the smell that always makes him feel comfortable as he climbs into his giant fluffy bed. Sprawling, he pulls Kyle over to him. "So, you know I love you. I mean, I don't know if I've said it, but I do. Maybe you're not the big love of my life, but I love you, and there's no changing that fact. Then there is Liz, and while I will always Love her, our relationship is changing, and I know a lot of that is my fault. I haven't been a great boyfriend lately. I haven't gone seeking her out lately like I did when we were first here. I've been getting shoved in rooms with more and more people. I feel like such a..." He pauses, and bites at his lip..."like a slut. I hate it. I mean, there's someone else here, someone I'm really starting to love, like really love, and I got jealous the other day. I didn't have the right to, and I know it, but my feelings got in the way of my brain, but with all the people here... you've gotta know how I feel, right Kyle? I mean, you've had to have been jealous before? But, then I'm over here sleeping with everyone I don't know. It means nothing, but then, I get angry cause Caleb sleeps with people he knows. I mean I get why, but it feels like... oh fuck, i don't know. I hate this fucking city." He rolls over and buries his face into the pillow feeling confused and guilty, and frustrated all at once.
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He enjoys showing Kyle the little life he's got carved out in Duplicity. His small slice of happiness here-- he hopes.
Falling into Kyle's arms, Max relaxes and brushes their noses together tenderly, kissing him here and there. "I don't know, I think I can just sit here and relax now, nothing much matters any more." He chuckled quietly between them. "Come lets lay on the bed and I'll talk. No reason to be uncomfortable while I spill my guts."
Max flips on the fireplace. The heatwave is mostly gone, and he's got the air down. Besides it's the smell that always makes him feel comfortable as he climbs into his giant fluffy bed. Sprawling, he pulls Kyle over to him. "So, you know I love you. I mean, I don't know if I've said it, but I do. Maybe you're not the big love of my life, but I love you, and there's no changing that fact. Then there is Liz, and while I will always Love her, our relationship is changing, and I know a lot of that is my fault. I haven't been a great boyfriend lately. I haven't gone seeking her out lately like I did when we were first here. I've been getting shoved in rooms with more and more people. I feel like such a..." He pauses, and bites at his lip..."like a slut. I hate it. I mean, there's someone else here, someone I'm really starting to love, like really love, and I got jealous the other day. I didn't have the right to, and I know it, but my feelings got in the way of my brain, but with all the people here... you've gotta know how I feel, right Kyle? I mean, you've had to have been jealous before? But, then I'm over here sleeping with everyone I don't know. It means nothing, but then, I get angry cause Caleb sleeps with people he knows. I mean I get why, but it feels like... oh fuck, i don't know. I hate this fucking city." He rolls over and buries his face into the pillow feeling confused and guilty, and frustrated all at once.