( the answer to a question like that is so big that nick can't possibly fathom a real answer right now. he wants to scream, but the idea of actually vocalising any of the thoughts rattling around his head makes him feel insane. he wants to be by himself, but he wants kyle here more. contradictions on contradictions, and the only sure thing is that the touch around his waist is the only thing that has made him feel remotely better so far. )
You're helping.
( he's just as quiet as kyle, leaning until his cheek rests against the other man's and exhaling carefully and slowly. and when that isn't enough, he turns his face too, brushes a kiss across kyle's cheek and closes his eyes. )
You are. I just want–
( he cuts off, frustrated, because half the problem is that nick has no idea what it is nick wants, from kyle or in general. )
no subject
You're helping.
( he's just as quiet as kyle, leaning until his cheek rests against the other man's and exhaling carefully and slowly. and when that isn't enough, he turns his face too, brushes a kiss across kyle's cheek and closes his eyes. )
You are. I just want–
( he cuts off, frustrated, because half the problem is that nick has no idea what it is nick wants, from kyle or in general. )