Oh, Kyle, that is almost unbearably kind of you to offer. I'm truly touched. I don't know how to express my gratitude, but please know that I feel it from the bottom of my heart. It isn't that I'm not interested, or rather... it isn't you that I'm not interested in. I think you are generous and thoughtful and handsome and appealing, and I think if my thoughts were not such a tangle, I would find you almost impossible to refuse.
( which is to say, louis is well aware that kyle is the sort of vampire he might develop romantic feelings toward, if things were different. if the timing was better. or perhaps if louis just had better taste in men. )
How do I put this without sounding prudish?
One peculiarity of vampires in my world is that we cannot experience intimacy as humans do. That is to say, since we as a species do not reproduce through natural means, we lose both the urge and the ability to have sexual intercourse. The desire for closeness is still there, but the instincts I have now are so different than when I was a man. Some vampires take mortal lovers, and play at what they used to have... but for 200 years, the only physical intimacy I ever had was when I felt my mortal victims' lives slip away.
The powers that be here in Duplicity have restored my body's ability, but my desires remain unchanged. It has never been an easy thing for me to be close to someone. I don't know why.
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It isn't that I'm not interested, or rather... it isn't you that I'm not interested in. I think you are generous and thoughtful and handsome and appealing, and I think if my thoughts were not such a tangle, I would find you almost impossible to refuse.
( which is to say, louis is well aware that kyle is the sort of vampire he might develop romantic feelings toward, if things were different. if the timing was better. or perhaps if louis just had better taste in men. )
How do I put this without sounding prudish?
One peculiarity of vampires in my world is that we cannot experience intimacy as humans do. That is to say, since we as a species do not reproduce through natural means, we lose both the urge and the ability to have sexual intercourse. The desire for closeness is still there, but the instincts I have now are so different than when I was a man. Some vampires take mortal lovers, and play at what they used to have... but for 200 years, the only physical intimacy I ever had was when I felt my mortal victims' lives slip away.
The powers that be here in Duplicity have restored my body's ability, but my desires remain unchanged. It has never been an easy thing for me to be close to someone. I don't know why.