Well if I'm being honest, it feels that bad right now so...

[ Normally he would have hidden it, fought to keep his emotions down and to not let it show how nervous he is. They've come through so much, he sees no reason to hide it from Nick.

He moves to take Nick's hand though, settling on the bed so he's facing him. He shakes his head. ]

Nope. You asked me not to and I never did. Ragnor and I talked about it though.