[ He realizes what it is when he says no who but what. That thing that Kyle fights against, that he denies if he can because he's afraid of what happens if he doesn't.

He remembers that too. ]

I know I'm not human. I don't feel it though. Even when I do things I know humans can't, I don't feel like I'm not. But I have. I did right after I was turned, when I wasn't doing everything I could to stay as human as I can.

I could feel it, if I let myself. [ It's something he's never let himself admit to anyone. Not at all but he suspect Chris needs to know there is a difference more than he needs to keep that secret. ] I have felt it and there's a reason I don't give myself time to stop and think. To feel.

I do know though. About the ship and all that happened. Nate and you both died, and it hit my household pretty hard but that is nothing compared to what you all went through from what I've heard.