[ There's an unsettled feeling as they talk about this. Having to think about what he's hidden for so long, that memory of living as less than human. The violence and the bloodshed and all that had come with those months after he'd been turned and before they were broken up.

Things he hasn't let himself think about in nearly two years and now it's just there, right below the surface and he's not sure what to think about that sensation.

The words "I feel fine" have never meant anything but covering up the truth, and it's so carefully worded. Looking away didn't help that feeling Kyle has either. ]

Fine could mean a lot. You don't have to talk about it, Chris, but I'm here for you as well. Without judging. Without doing more than letting you talk it out. Just like you're giving me that chance now.

[ And it's why he wants to let him know how he feels, what he's thinking. So that he knows they're sharing this, and that he is willing to talk things out with Chris. ]

Not since I was with Elijah. Then I was entirely open about it all. I sunk into what I was and forgot about who I was. But if we're honest about this?

[ And he needs to be honest about it. For both of them. ]

I still don't know how much of it was what I am and what was what he wanted me to be.