You know what I can do. The worst I can do. Shouldn't I be afraid?

[ His voice is soft then, earnest. He hates reminding Chris of that but its the truth as well. If anyone in this city knows why Kyle is afraid, its Chris. ]

I hate what I did to you and others. I hate that I let him ... No I let me become like that. I won't blame him for it.

[ Even if there was plenty of blame to be passed that way as well. ]

The truth? That I've never said to anyone? I don't know what autonomy is as a vampire. I came to bound and I've gone to great lengths to remain human but you're right. I don't know what its like.

[ He's so quiet, his voice soft, but he never looks away from Chris. ]

My needs are one thing I haven't shied from. I don't think. I mean, I think I'm one of the few vampires in this city who gets their blood directly rather than my blood bank for them.

[ But there's other things about himself, things that could well be needs, things he hasn't let himself think about. And it's truly out of fear of what he could be. ]

I won't be a monster, Chris. I can't let myself be. No matter what I am.