I don't know how to let them go. Bane shadows my steps, I question where his influence lies in me all the time. But I am not him, no matter what hw wanted. I won't become him. I trust that because, at the end of the day, I'm me and can be no one else. What separates those two things, at the very least, is cruelty. I don't think I'm that. I know you're not and neither is Jon. That's the important thing to hold onto.
I've never felt worse than the time I forgot that.
What I see in all this are two men who desperately don't want to be monsters to the point that even a moment of aberrant behavior brought about by cruel circumstances and their relation to someone they care about, clashed. Tensions were running high for you both, higher than any normal day. You should be kind to yourselves and your own reactions.
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But I am not him, no matter what hw wanted. I won't become him. I trust that because, at the end of the day, I'm me and can be no one else.
What separates those two things, at the very least, is cruelty. I don't think I'm that. I know you're not and neither is Jon. That's the important thing to hold onto.
I've never felt worse than the time I forgot that.
What I see in all this are two men who desperately don't want to be monsters to the point that even a moment of aberrant behavior brought about by cruel circumstances and their relation to someone they care about, clashed. Tensions were running high for you both, higher than any normal day. You should be kind to yourselves and your own reactions.
That is not our normal.