Do you know how hard it is for me to focus on that though when you have been through so much? When best I can tell its not over? I'm scared for you, Nick. I'm scared for Oliver. I want to tell you stay away from him but I don't see the point in setting you up to lie to me and hide more things.
I want to protect you, to feel like I'm doing something for you.
Right now I don't feel like I'm capable of any of that and it's hard to cope with.
That its hurting you should matter too. If not for you then for me and Oliver and Michael and Ragnor and I can keep going, you know, but we all care a lot if you're hurt.
But I'm glad you've made that decision.
And whether something happens or not, that is not your fault. It's his. What can we do for Oliver?
I know you didn't want to, Nick. Trust me, after all this time, I know that isn't you. At all. But I'm scared and I'm worried and I'm not sure what to do except try and protect you the best I can.
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this right now, this conversation? this isnt about me, or what ive been through, it's about how you feel.
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Do you know how hard it is for me to focus on that though when you have been through so much? When best I can tell its not over?
I'm scared for you, Nick. I'm scared for Oliver.
I want to tell you stay away from him but I don't see the point in setting you up to lie to me and hide more things.
I want to protect you, to feel like I'm doing something for you.
Right now I don't feel like I'm capable of any of that and it's hard to cope with.
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its. you know. its hurting people, not just me, so i'm going to.
i'm just like. i'm so scared something's going to happen if i do stay away from him. but i am, now.
i'm sorry. i really am, i didn't want to hurt anyone. that's like the opposite of what i was trying to do.
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But I'm glad you've made that decision.
And whether something happens or not, that is not your fault. It's his.
What can we do for Oliver?
I know you didn't want to, Nick. Trust me, after all this time, I know that isn't you. At all. But I'm scared and I'm worried and I'm not sure what to do except try and protect you the best I can.