Imagine how much I'm gonna love walking a glowing
sword into some store and asking if they have something to fit it. I figure
I'll make something. I don't want Chester's little hands getting on it
either.
Kyle, I love you. But man, you're an idiot sometimes.
You haven't been that man for years. You put yourself before other people all the time, you're the guy who goes to bat for minorities. You aren't that kid anymore.
Just try to stop atoning for something you've
already been forgiven for. You have a second chance, not everyone gets
that. You gotta start acting like you have it and not keep holding onto
guilt.
Maybe that's what I needed to think about with this instead of thinking it's a reminder. Instead it's a reminder of what I've gained since then and who I've become.
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It looks like Manes' necklace from when were teens.
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Imagine how much I'm gonna love walking a glowing sword into some store and asking if they have something to fit it. I figure I'll make something. I don't want Chester's little hands getting on it either.
Alex's necklace? That's not even yours.
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Technically the sword isn't yours eithers? I don't think they care. I've been working through how much of my past I'm holding onto.
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If it turns out I share DNA with a void creature as well as the tyrant who destroyed our planet, I'm launching myself into space.
I guess you're right. What does that necklace mean to you?
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Honestly? That I need to start forgiving myself for the past because I haven't.
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Alex has.
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After things here, I think I'm still scared of becoming the man I've been again.
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You haven't been that man for years. You put yourself before other people all the time, you're the guy who goes to bat for minorities. You aren't that kid anymore.
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You don't ever worry about sliding back? I think that's all it is. If I worry about it, it won't happen.
[ and it means he doesn't have to think about other things he just hasn't coped with because they don't matter here. ]
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I don't worry about YOU sliding back. I worry you'll get yourself killed trying to help someone else.
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I can't argue that possibility given what I've done. Here and back in Roswell.
I can try and be more careful but I can't promise it won't happen. But I will try and be cautious. More than I have.
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Just try to stop atoning for something you've already been forgiven for. You have a second chance, not everyone gets that. You gotta start acting like you have it and not keep holding onto guilt.
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A lot of other things get in my head.
I've been really lucky to have you and others to help me find that within myself.
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