I'm not saying no, I just want to know what you're looking for. So I have to wonder. Is this because of your relationship with Michael and remembering that or a need to e able to trust her again?
its closer to #2 i guess. it's not my relationship with her, i dont know her, i never did. but like
i still blame her, kyle. whether thats fair or not i dont know, but i do, and if ive still got this big open wound its like it hurts, when other people are around her and all i see is michael's killer, so i need to close the wound
[ It's not as if he can blame Nick. He doesn't trust her either, but it's more than just Michael's death, though that was kind of the icing on a shit cake to him. ]
Okay. I mean, I can get that. I'm sure there's some that feel the same about me.
[ And others he feels the same about. That's the thing. He can understand where Nick is coming from. ]
I have an honest question for you, and I can't believe I'm asking this. Have you tried talking to her? And what about Michael?
Nick, I have been there. I'm the one that did a horrific thing that people saw on the network. And I'm the one that knows horrific things happened to those I love and its still hard dealing with them every day. I just worry for you. On all sides.
i talked to michael. he says it's ok for me to be hurt about it still and i just need time i don't want to talk to her. michael says she already feels guilty enough and like i blame her, kyle. i do. but i don't want to make her feel worse and i dont think i can talk to her and that not be obvious
i dont want her to feel worse and i dont want nate or ragnor to feel bad about their choices but i dont want to keep hurting about this either
theres only one problem in this whole mess and its me
I have two questions for you and I mean these to make you think about this, okay? I'm not trying to hurt you, I just don't want to make things worse for you.
If you forget what she did, would it mean forgetting anything else? Like times with Michael?
Would you want me to forget about things that make me uncertain about Logan?
[Because neither had been in their right minds. Both had done other things that made it hard for Kyle to see their actions entirely not their own. Both were people he as uncertain about, and he knew he wasn't getting over that. Not with either of them. ]
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Is this because of your relationship with Michael and remembering that or a need to e able to trust her again?
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closer to #2 i guess. it's not my relationship with her, i dont know her, i never did. but like
i still blame her, kyle. whether thats fair or not i dont know, but i do, and if ive still got this big open wound its like
it hurts, when other people are around her and all i see is michael's killer, so i need to close the wound
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Okay. I mean, I can get that. I'm sure there's some that feel the same about me.
[ And others he feels the same about. That's the thing. He can understand where Nick is coming from. ]
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so i need to fix it, before it gets complicated
and i don't know how else to fix it as quickly as i need it to be fixed, except by forgetting, or something like that
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Which is why I worry. What will happen if you see it on the device, or someone brings it up? Have you thought about that?
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it'll probably be confusing but like
i don't know. i don't think it'll be worse than this
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I have an honest question for you, and I can't believe I'm asking this.
Have you tried talking to her? And what about Michael?
Nick, I have been there. I'm the one that did a horrific thing that people saw on the network.
And I'm the one that knows horrific things happened to those I love and its still hard dealing with them every day.
I just worry for you. On all sides.
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i don't want to talk to her. michael says she already feels guilty enough and like
i blame her, kyle. i do. but i don't want to make her feel worse and i dont think i can talk to her and that not be obvious
i dont want her to feel worse and i dont want nate or ragnor to feel bad about their choices but i dont
want to keep hurting about this either
theres only one problem in this whole mess and its me
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If you forget what she did, would it mean forgetting anything else? Like times with Michael?
Would you want me to forget about things that make me uncertain about Logan?
[Because neither had been in their right minds. Both had done other things that made it hard for Kyle to see their actions entirely not their own. Both were people he as uncertain about, and he knew he wasn't getting over that. Not with either of them. ]