"I wish I had answers to give you," Kyle says softly when Alex speaks about it being scary, and how Guerin might be all Alex has to hold on to.
Like talking about how Kyle is there for him, but he hasn't been. He's been his bully. He's been the monster that made an abused kid's life even worse. Now they've been tentatively working things out, leaving that behind, but Kyle also knows the person he was, and he isn't sure how many changes makes him different. Even if there's only a few of them that likely still think about that side of him rather than the man he's become.
"You'd have had what you have now for the last ten years," he says softly, looking over to Alex from where he's staring out the window, not really seeing anything. "Someone you can turn to whenever you need anything."
Which feels like so much of too little to late, and he knows it. "Something else to hold on to."
He shifts, the sound of it loud to his own ears in the quiet of the car.
"I really a sorry, Alex. I did the same thing I think everyone else has. Taken out their issues on you. I'm really sorry."
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Like talking about how Kyle is there for him, but he hasn't been. He's been his bully. He's been the monster that made an abused kid's life even worse. Now they've been tentatively working things out, leaving that behind, but Kyle also knows the person he was, and he isn't sure how many changes makes him different. Even if there's only a few of them that likely still think about that side of him rather than the man he's become.
"You'd have had what you have now for the last ten years," he says softly, looking over to Alex from where he's staring out the window, not really seeing anything. "Someone you can turn to whenever you need anything."
Which feels like so much of too little to late, and he knows it. "Something else to hold on to."
He shifts, the sound of it loud to his own ears in the quiet of the car.
"I really a sorry, Alex. I did the same thing I think everyone else has. Taken out their issues on you. I'm really sorry."