All Kyle knew, and couldn't get out of his head, is that so many people died the day they decided to go there after being kept for so many decades. He couldn't get it out of his head, even if it's background noise sometimes to the sound of a gun in that small space, wondering how long he might flinch at loud sounds thinking about it. Kyle promised to save lives, and he's accepted a lot in trying to do that. He hadn't shot Jesse Manes, but he had been part of whatever happened in that prison. Even if he doesn't know what happened in those moments. He just keeps seeing faces. Even the one that had caused his dad's tumors, but not as the enemy. Not now.
"Yeah well, a lot changed after graduation." He'd left Roswell. He'd left behind the guys that had encouraged him at his worse. He'd left behind Alex, and those thoughts he had buried deep in his psyche so many years before. "I want to be this guy," he says, meaning it. In everything, and especially with Alex. Alex who was off limits and in love and so whatever all of that had been, it didn't matter.
"Do what you need to," he says with a nod. "Thankfully I'm the one they would consult on about his sudden coma without a cause, so I can push things back with a series of useless tests so no one will check his levels but me," he notes. "I just... I don't think I can keep him like that forever but we have time."
He nods as he says it, realizing his hand feels cold then, almost tingling and he forces himself to shake it off as he stands. "Let's go."
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"Yeah well, a lot changed after graduation." He'd left Roswell. He'd left behind the guys that had encouraged him at his worse. He'd left behind Alex, and those thoughts he had buried deep in his psyche so many years before. "I want to be this guy," he says, meaning it. In everything, and especially with Alex. Alex who was off limits and in love and so whatever all of that had been, it didn't matter.
"Do what you need to," he says with a nod. "Thankfully I'm the one they would consult on about his sudden coma without a cause, so I can push things back with a series of useless tests so no one will check his levels but me," he notes. "I just... I don't think I can keep him like that forever but we have time."
He nods as he says it, realizing his hand feels cold then, almost tingling and he forces himself to shake it off as he stands. "Let's go."