Sometimes the best part of bartending is knowing just what your client needs right now. Even more so with a friend.
[ And right now his friend definitely seems to need something warming. Not to mention a bit of Dutch courage.
And the next part is knowing when to listen. To let Chris get this out in his own way, on his own.
That question though catches him off guard and he sits up a bit straighter, considering that. ]
You mean more in here... [ He touches a hand to his chest. ] To who I am as a person. I...
[ The easy answer is there, but he doesn't think easy answers are needed right now. ]
Not normally, but that is because I work very hard to never let myself forget who I was before. I hold tight to those I love, to love which is really important to me in ways I don't think anyone really gets. Maybe Michael? But I don't think even he understands how much it's part of me.
So I hold on to that. Onto being who I've always been because...
[ He picks up his drink and sips instead of gulps even if part of him aches to. ]
Because I haven't always been who I am and I know I can be someone else. Something else. You've seen that yourself... but there's more ways than just that. There's a sort of lack of care for humans in my kind. A lack of care for others. I gave into that for a time right after I was turned and I know what its like. It's not freeing like they believe. It's awful.
[ He sighs. ]
Which is probably way more than you were asking for.
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[ And right now his friend definitely seems to need something warming. Not to mention a bit of Dutch courage.
And the next part is knowing when to listen. To let Chris get this out in his own way, on his own.
That question though catches him off guard and he sits up a bit straighter, considering that. ]
You mean more in here... [ He touches a hand to his chest. ] To who I am as a person. I...
[ The easy answer is there, but he doesn't think easy answers are needed right now. ]
Not normally, but that is because I work very hard to never let myself forget who I was before. I hold tight to those I love, to love which is really important to me in ways I don't think anyone really gets. Maybe Michael? But I don't think even he understands how much it's part of me.
So I hold on to that. Onto being who I've always been because...
[ He picks up his drink and sips instead of gulps even if part of him aches to. ]
Because I haven't always been who I am and I know I can be someone else. Something else. You've seen that yourself... but there's more ways than just that. There's a sort of lack of care for humans in my kind. A lack of care for others. I gave into that for a time right after I was turned and I know what its like. It's not freeing like they believe. It's awful.
[ He sighs. ]
Which is probably way more than you were asking for.