most recently? whatever it is that meant i didn't deserve the love i had. i can accept i'm not meant for that though. what we do reflects back on us and i haven't been good to others.
that's possible. i hardly left the house in the time we were together to honor the vows we made to one another. and I didn't. not for six months but for the one time i had no choice.
perhaps they thought that was not a good arrangement
not that there is any reason why they should involve themselves at all, but then we are speaking of people who have kidnapped us from our homes to use us in a sex experiment their standards are likely to be different
[ And thus, Rafa is very glad that he and Ignacio have never attempted to practice monogamy. Truly, all problems can be traced back to that foolish idea. ]
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i can accept i'm not meant for that though. what we do reflects back on us and i haven't been good to others.
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perhaps you were too happy. too settled. not reaching out enough
or perhaps you are right and this is a punishment. but i think that may be your guilt talking, more than anything else
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not that there is any reason why they should involve themselves at all, but then we are speaking of people who have kidnapped us from our homes to use us in a sex experiment
their standards are likely to be different
[ And thus, Rafa is very glad that he and Ignacio have never attempted to practice monogamy. Truly, all problems can be traced back to that foolish idea. ]
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All I know is I've learned things and I just need to work through some things.
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i am still so very sorry for what you have lost. that is not how it ought to be
but since it is, i will do all that i can to support you.
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Thank you though. I not only appreciate that, Rafa, I know I need it.
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a life like ours is unbearable if lived alone.
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[He has Michael and Liz, Margo and Rafa. He has Cain for the time he stays.]
I'm just not sure about romance. Not yet. Not until I get my head on straight.