I'm trying. But when the people you loved and trusted most have all tried to kill you...trusting new people to actually be there for you takes a lot of work.
I'm sure it does. But there's one thing I'm going to say and you can not like me for it but I feel it needs to be said. As a friend. As his friend.
No matter how many people have hurt you, expecting him to hurt you no matter what he's said and done is calling him a liar. It's saying no matter how hard he works, he will always be circumspect in your mind because of the actions of others. He's losing before he can even try. And that's not fair to either of you.
Why would I dislike you for looking out for him and being a good friend? I know you're right and that was one of the first things the Doc and I worked on. I still struggle sometimes, what with the disorder-born paranoia, but I know he's not them, and I trust him more than I ever thought I would trust again. But letting *other* people see me vulnerable and not expecting them to take advantage, trusting people who say they want to be there for me? That's a different story to make myself believe. I know Alex cares and wants what's best for me. I don't feel certain about that...larger support network. But I would rather you all be there for him, anyway.
Because you do have mental health issues and you are looking for help for them. But in the end, no one deserves to live constantly worrying they're being judged for things they never did. To be punished for the actions of another.
I'm glad you have that trust in him.
That larger support network is only there because we care about him. We all make mistakes. I know that better than anyone. Just know that we're not here to judge you, Bass. We're just here to care about him.
I'm never going to complain about you all supporting and caring about him--or about me for his sake. I'm glad he has you. I appreciate the lack of judgment and that you believe I'm genuinely trying to work on my issues and be better.
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I'm trying. But when the people you loved and trusted most have all tried to kill you...trusting new people to actually be there for you takes a lot of work.
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I'm sure it does. But there's one thing I'm going to say and you can not like me for it but I feel it needs to be said. As a friend. As his friend.
No matter how many people have hurt you, expecting him to hurt you no matter what he's said and done is calling him a liar. It's saying no matter how hard he works, he will always be circumspect in your mind because of the actions of others. He's losing before he can even try. And that's not fair to either of you.
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I'm glad you have that trust in him.
That larger support network is only there because we care about him. We all make mistakes. I know that better than anyone. Just know that we're not here to judge you, Bass. We're just here to care about him.
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