My intention was to attack him, rather than to feed upon him for my own satisfaction. I suspect that is the reason why he lived, as I have only recently had any success with purposeful feeding.
Then at the very least it was unthinking evil, done in service of my own misery. I didn't think of him at all when I used him as my makeshift confessional... I never even asked the boy his name. He would have gone on living his life never knowing that he shared the world with things like me.
And I went on to kill again, just as I always had.
I've witnessed a 1000 years of horror in a moment. I may be young, but I also know that with enough time we have to learn to accept who we can be more than who we've been.
Thank you though. It's the one thing I really hope to always be.
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I saw a 1000 years of murder and pain and destruction and I still did it. No matter what you tried, you couldn't stop it.
But you're saying you didn't kill him. You can harm and not kill then?
[ It was something they have talked about, and something that he wants to be able to help him with. ]
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And I went on to kill again, just as I always had.
You shouldn't be so quick to absolve me.
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Thank you though. It's the one thing I really hope to always be.