The longer you're here, the more it feels that way. Especially when you find yourself immersed in it.
[ His sire and his siblings were made what they were by magic, and that meant it was part of Kyle too. He had examined enough of his own dna now and all to learn it was certainly not science but...
Though he blinks at that comment, definitely not seeing this being where the conversation might go. ]
Well...
[ Yeah, that's a start. ]
I can't say I don't agree and I worry about that myself. I told him as much actually, and...
[ He remembers Alex's warning, considering if he should go on but he does. ]
I did offer him a fallback if he needs it.
[ It hadn't been a fallback in Kyle's mind or anything but a genuine offer to wanting him there but he knows this isn't the Tim he knew before and so his emotions about it all were not the same as the Tim here now. ]
He told me. I didn't tell him to take it. I did tell him that you'd be my first choice of people here.
I don't know if that will make a difference, but I hope it does. If it doesn't you may want to be prepared to... [ he takes a drink from his cup and grimaces a little ] catch him on the downswing.
If you had told him to take it, would he have refused just on that?
[ He nearly smiles as he shakes his head. ]
Don't answer that. Mostly just being a smart ass.
Thank you though. I appreciate knowing you would say that.
[ He's quiet for a minute, staring down into his coffee before looking up at Bruce. ]
If he'll let me, I'll be there for him. Even if he contracts with another. I would argue I have the means and ways of helping him here as much as anyone but I don't always listen to what's best for me, so I get it.
[ Bruce also smiles, too. Because it's astute and fair, which really sums up Kyle overall. ]
Tim is from at least a couple of years in my future. I know very little of what happened in that time, but Tim has always been more motivated to help than to be helped. That hasn't changed. If anything it's intensified.
[ Not gonna come out and say 'Tim thinks he might be a burden' but- ]
[ There was a time when Kyle had let his selfish desires rule and while they can still lead him, he works to do good as well. ]
He can find ways here to do it. I've seen others he's known manage it as well. It just involves a lot of risks. Which I get is not really that different, just maybe more chance of hurting those you get close to.
Most people can. Sadly not everyone does. Oddly here they seem to more than back home, but that could be my own viewpoint.
As for balancing things...
[ He falls quiet a moment, considering that. ]
I think what some of us are capable of balancing is not the same as what others are comfortable putting on our shoulders.
[ He knows they're still talking about Tim, or he knows he is, but he doesn't want to report on all Tim had told him about his worries with Kyle. ]
I can understand those that wait, see how things are. Accepting this is real and the exits are still hiding themselves from us isn't easy. Not to mention the other requirements. I was down to my last days before my first contract and she and I weren't fulfilling quota with one another.
While I'd like Tim to contract with me, I understand why he's reluctant and just hope he finds someone then.
[ He tries not to sound bothered by it, given he felt he had ruined that with a kiss before realizing it wasn't the Tim he'd known. ]
If I'd arrived without Clark, I would do exactly what he is doing. If I had arrived and it had taken Clark longer than twenty minutes to find me, I likely still would have.
[ Which is just truth. He is self-aware. His reasons wouldn't be any different. ]
[Kyle nods. They're definitely on the same page. ]
Hopefully between us we'll be able to see that he gets that.
No matter what his choices, I'm going to be there for him as much as he'll let me. I know we can't fix everything but I have resources those that haven't been here as long don't.
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[ His sire and his siblings were made what they were by magic, and that meant it was part of Kyle too. He had examined enough of his own dna now and all to learn it was certainly not science but...
Though he blinks at that comment, definitely not seeing this being where the conversation might go. ]
Well...
[ Yeah, that's a start. ]
I can't say I don't agree and I worry about that myself. I told him as much actually, and...
[ He remembers Alex's warning, considering if he should go on but he does. ]
I did offer him a fallback if he needs it.
[ It hadn't been a fallback in Kyle's mind or anything but a genuine offer to wanting him there but he knows this isn't the Tim he knew before and so his emotions about it all were not the same as the Tim here now. ]
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If he was keeping score. He's not. ]
He told me. I didn't tell him to take it. I did tell him that you'd be my first choice of people here.
I don't know if that will make a difference, but I hope it does. If it doesn't you may want to be prepared to... [ he takes a drink from his cup and grimaces a little ] catch him on the downswing.
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[ He nearly smiles as he shakes his head. ]
Don't answer that. Mostly just being a smart ass.
Thank you though. I appreciate knowing you would say that.
[ He's quiet for a minute, staring down into his coffee before looking up at Bruce. ]
If he'll let me, I'll be there for him. Even if he contracts with another. I would argue I have the means and ways of helping him here as much as anyone but I don't always listen to what's best for me, so I get it.
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Tim is from at least a couple of years in my future. I know very little of what happened in that time, but Tim has always been more motivated to help than to be helped. That hasn't changed. If anything it's intensified.
[ Not gonna come out and say 'Tim thinks he might be a burden' but- ]
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[ There was a time when Kyle had let his selfish desires rule and while they can still lead him, he works to do good as well. ]
He can find ways here to do it. I've seen others he's known manage it as well. It just involves a lot of risks. Which I get is not really that different, just maybe more chance of hurting those you get close to.
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Most people can find ways to help. Particularly when it comes to balancing interpersonal relationships.
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As for balancing things...
[ He falls quiet a moment, considering that. ]
I think what some of us are capable of balancing is not the same as what others are comfortable putting on our shoulders.
[ He knows they're still talking about Tim, or he knows he is, but he doesn't want to report on all Tim had told him about his worries with Kyle. ]
I can understand those that wait, see how things are. Accepting this is real and the exits are still hiding themselves from us isn't easy. Not to mention the other requirements. I was down to my last days before my first contract and she and I weren't fulfilling quota with one another.
While I'd like Tim to contract with me, I understand why he's reluctant and just hope he finds someone then.
[ He tries not to sound bothered by it, given he felt he had ruined that with a kiss before realizing it wasn't the Tim he'd known. ]
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[ Which is just truth. He is self-aware. His reasons wouldn't be any different. ]
I just want him somewhere relatively safe.
[ Relative to Duplicity. ]
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Hopefully between us we'll be able to see that he gets that.
No matter what his choices, I'm going to be there for him as much as he'll let me. I know we can't fix everything but I have resources those that haven't been here as long don't.