Fair enough. I can promise you an open mind should I ever meet him.
[ Because he doesn't assume he will, not intentionally. As much as he's enjoyed this since he came to this place, he hasn't assumed what it means, just glad that it keeps going on. Like Jackson texting him about this.
Even if, as he reads the text, he has a million questions. A thousand things he wants to say, to try and get details on, and to ask the simplest of all: what does this mean to them. Except he's not sure that's what Jackson needs right now, and that's what he wants to focus on. ]
Start with that then, Jackson. What do you want? I mean, and this is entirely going from just things you've told me, it's in name only since he's not an alpha? I mean, that's how that works, right?
[ At least it makes sense in his head, and he's not even sure about getting into does that change with hybrids? And are nonvampire hybrids different than vampire hybrids? He's going to start a list and one day start asking about these things, and hope it doesn't get him hurt by someone. ]
So what do you want? I mean, I figure you've already thought about this so I'm just kind of being that asshole as if you haven't already asked yourself these things. Though maybe it's as much about what you need as what you want, and if you can have all of it.
[ Which brings him back to those thoughts of where this leaves them, how that works with a pack, and stopping himself from typing those questions. ]
He isn't an alpha when I remember him, but here he still is. I haven't been in London long from when he remembers. When he's from. You know what I mean.
This place is so weird, but yeah, I get it. I would say you have to ask yourself if he's the alpha you want then? I don't know the politics of it all but he asked and isn't demanding so that seems a logical question.
Also if this means you're calling an end to this between us through text? Yeah, I will give you hell constantly until one of us isn't here anymore.
[ Except it's glad it's text. It means he can keep an even tone and there's no expression to worry about. If it's just a thing, then he has to accept that. Text means he can make jokes though and not betray himself with the look in his eyes. ]
Is that what this sounds like? I don't know what I'm doing here, Kyle, in this city or with you, but I don't want to stop. Maybe we're not supposed to be seeing each other because of a designation but when has something like that stopped us. I moved to London and made a better life. You became a freakin doctor.
I can have an alpha and be in a pack and still have someone.
And no, I don't know if you are a someone, or my someone. But you're . Kyle. Right now that's what I can do if that's okay with you.
I don't care what this damn city says we should be doing. I enjoy spending time with you, even when you're texting others, and so I just want to keep doing what we are.
[Yeah, he's not letting that go, Jackson, but he isn't bothered by it either. ]
I honestly don't know the politics of how packs work so I wasn't sure if it meant giving this up. More than okay. It's definitely more than okay. I just didn't want to be in the way of you being involved with a pack. I don't know how this works, but I can only imagine it has to be hard doing it alone.
I want you to have what you need, but I'm glad it doesn't mean not seeing you. All the shit we're coping with in this city, I want this.
And I think I want this for what it is right now. I know I can't promise you more. I also know this, us, is against the rules.
There's a warlock in the city who knows a spell that helps conceal things. It costs.
( He also doesn't know if he wants to invest money in it when he needs to be studying hard to be a lawyer and greasing certain people's palms to fast track it. )
We're friends, Kyle, who've seen each other naked.
I'm not asking for anything more. I'm good with things as they are. Even the risk.
How costly are we talking? Is the risk of being caught that great?
[He's not sure knowing the risk changes his willingness to take it on though. He's good with how his life is shaping up. ]
That works. Like I said, I barely understand the logistics of magic and werewolves and vampires existing, nonetheless what all it means with alphas and packs and all of that. But I want to learn when I can.
I do learn some of that from you but from others too.
[That question catches him off guard, not even sure how to answer it. If only that he suspects the answer expected in this place and Kyle's answer are maybe not the same. Though he's never truly thought of working on enjoying himself in this place. ]
I'm doing my best to make a life here. Not really sure I'm the type to enjoy like most do here but I'm not only working and working out.
I didn't mean 'enjoying yourself,' like it sounds. But, I do know as fucked up as everything can be here, we have to find the people and the things we can do besides people that make it better. Or, make it suck less.
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[ Because he doesn't assume he will, not intentionally. As much as he's enjoyed this since he came to this place, he hasn't assumed what it means, just glad that it keeps going on. Like Jackson texting him about this.
Even if, as he reads the text, he has a million questions. A thousand things he wants to say, to try and get details on, and to ask the simplest of all: what does this mean to them. Except he's not sure that's what Jackson needs right now, and that's what he wants to focus on. ]
Start with that then, Jackson. What do you want? I mean, and this is entirely going from just things you've told me, it's in name only since he's not an alpha? I mean, that's how that works, right?
[ At least it makes sense in his head, and he's not even sure about getting into does that change with hybrids? And are nonvampire hybrids different than vampire hybrids? He's going to start a list and one day start asking about these things, and hope it doesn't get him hurt by someone. ]
So what do you want? I mean, I figure you've already thought about this so I'm just kind of being that asshole as if you haven't already asked yourself these things. Though maybe it's as much about what you need as what you want, and if you can have all of it.
[ Which brings him back to those thoughts of where this leaves them, how that works with a pack, and stopping himself from typing those questions. ]
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I think that I wouldn't hate having an alpha.
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Also if this means you're calling an end to this between us through text? Yeah, I will give you hell constantly until one of us isn't here anymore.
[ Except it's glad it's text. It means he can keep an even tone and there's no expression to worry about. If it's just a thing, then he has to accept that. Text means he can make jokes though and not betray himself with the look in his eyes. ]
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Wait, what?
Is that what this sounds like? I don't know what I'm doing here, Kyle, in this city or with you, but I don't want to stop. Maybe we're not supposed to be seeing each other because of a designation but when has something like that stopped us. I moved to London and made a better life. You became a freakin doctor.
I can have an alpha and be in a pack and still have someone.
And no, I don't know if you are a someone, or my someone. But you're . Kyle. Right now that's what I can do if that's okay with you.
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[Yeah, he's not letting that go, Jackson, but he isn't bothered by it either. ]
I honestly don't know the politics of how packs work so I wasn't sure if it meant giving this up. More than okay. It's definitely more than okay. I just didn't want to be in the way of you being involved with a pack. I don't know how this works, but I can only imagine it has to be hard doing it alone.
I want you to have what you need, but I'm glad it doesn't mean not seeing you. All the shit we're coping with in this city, I want this.
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There's a warlock in the city who knows a spell that helps conceal things. It costs.
( He also doesn't know if he wants to invest money in it when he needs to be studying hard to be a lawyer and greasing certain people's palms to fast track it. )
We're friends, Kyle, who've seen each other naked.
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How costly are we talking? Is the risk of being caught that great?
[He's not sure knowing the risk changes his willingness to take it on though. He's good with how his life is shaping up. ]
That works. Like I said, I barely understand the logistics of magic and werewolves and vampires existing, nonetheless what all it means with alphas and packs and all of that. But I want to learn when I can.
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( Do... you have a life outside of him? And your job? Alex? )
You're going out and enjoying yourself, right?
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[That question catches him off guard, not even sure how to answer it. If only that he suspects the answer expected in this place and Kyle's answer are maybe not the same. Though he's never truly thought of working on enjoying himself in this place. ]
I'm doing my best to make a life here. Not really sure I'm the type to enjoy like most do here but I'm not only working and working out.
[ At least not entirely. ]
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[ Even if he's sure he's lost his friend from home, but he'd rather be himself and hope they work it out. ]
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