"Yeah the bruise I'm sporting wasn't nonlethal," he points out, rubbing at his chest with a sigh as he leans back in the seat, closing his eyes. "That might be best though," he admits, feeling his heart starting to race when he thought about it once more, about the idea of holding that gun in that moment. He rubs his hand at his thigh along the nap of his jeans as if he can rub away the feeling of it.
It's been too much in such a short time and he's not sure how he's going to hold himself together the moment he has a second to stop and actually think. Until then though, he can just focus on here and now.
"Hence would be," he says softly, making himself open his eyes and staring out the window rather than looking at Alex. Though he laughs at that, the sound more bitter than he means it to be. "Oh he gets it," he says with a snort. "He gets that he's jealous as all hell because we're becoming friends again. You should have seen his face when I told him we'd been working on the code together." Barely turning his head then, stealing a glance at Alex from the corner of his eye.
"Somewhere he's gotten it in his head that he's got something to fear from me, as if that's somewhere you'd go,' he says, shaking his head. "He'll get over it. Just like he'll get over the fact that I was a monster to you in high school and then we can have those drinks and nothing to worry about."
It's easy to talk about, but he's not sure how much it would be in practice. Michael likely wouldn't forgive Kyle, and maybe he can sense Kyle's remembering what had happened to turn Kyle as he had. The crush that had terrified him so badly back then.
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It's been too much in such a short time and he's not sure how he's going to hold himself together the moment he has a second to stop and actually think. Until then though, he can just focus on here and now.
"Hence would be," he says softly, making himself open his eyes and staring out the window rather than looking at Alex. Though he laughs at that, the sound more bitter than he means it to be. "Oh he gets it," he says with a snort. "He gets that he's jealous as all hell because we're becoming friends again. You should have seen his face when I told him we'd been working on the code together." Barely turning his head then, stealing a glance at Alex from the corner of his eye.
"Somewhere he's gotten it in his head that he's got something to fear from me, as if that's somewhere you'd go,' he says, shaking his head. "He'll get over it. Just like he'll get over the fact that I was a monster to you in high school and then we can have those drinks and nothing to worry about."
It's easy to talk about, but he's not sure how much it would be in practice. Michael likely wouldn't forgive Kyle, and maybe he can sense Kyle's remembering what had happened to turn Kyle as he had. The crush that had terrified him so badly back then.