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[drmcsexy]

I am, yeah. We've worked out a way for me to be safe around everyone.

Everything okay?

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[angrycowboy]

Yeah. Look.

You wanna maybe get a drink? And yeah, you can chalk that off your list of shit you thought I'd never say, cause me too.

[drmcsexy]

Is this a prank? Is someone spoofing Guerin's phone?

Seriously though, yeah. I'd actually like that. Don't read too much into that.

When and where?

[angrycowboy]

Somewhere I don't work. Mendacity?

I figured it was time you went outside again.

[drmcsexy]

My favorite place. Seth and Margo are some of my favorite people, so that definitely works.

Aww, you care about my health, Guerin. I'm touched.

[Except he's not the first one to mention it, and he hadn't been thinking about how long he's been hiding out, even before the boat.]

[angrycowboy]

I haven't seen you since you changed species, man. You gotta admit that's worthy of a beer.

Seth is the guy who got caught up with that serial killer, right? Tell me you weren't part of that.

[drmcsexy]

Why do you word it like that? omg did I act like that when I found out about you and Isobel and Max?! Did I?Are you speciest?

... Please tell me you aren't asking if I had something to do with killing people I cared about.

[angrycowboy]

God, what the hell is wrong with you? I'm about to take back the offer.
No, I actually meant that I hope the actual people who did it, didn't hurt you like he hurt your friends.
And none of us ever changed species, Valenti. You not knowing what we were, doesn't make it the same.

[drmcsexy]

The first was just being a dick. That's all.

Already had someone ask me how dangerous I am. Just the idea of hurting someone I care about. Hell, I couldn't shoot Jesse Manes though I knew he was going to kill me. I just took it wrong.

Except for Margo's pain, and right after she had just died. We used to go to their club but that's over. I won't go again.

[angrycowboy]

Look, here's the thing.

You're not that guy. You don't hurt people, you help them. I don't believe that's changed just because you grew fangs.

Come out with me. It's gonna be okay. And if it's not, then I promise, I won't let you hurt anyone. I'll stop you with my brain if I have to. But I don't think I'll have to, because I know you, okay?

You're still the guy who stood still waiting for me to break his face, remember. I know.

[drmcsexy]

Thank you. I appreciate you saying that.

I know things could happen now but I'm going to always do what I can not to hurt others. I believe I can do this and not be out of control.

Guerin? I trust you. Let's go out. It's how things should've been since I got back to Roswell.

[angrycowboy]

Yeah, it is.

Maybe it would've been, if I hadn't still been pissed with you, and you weren't living in a closet.

Times change.

[drmcsexy]

Before I never thought I could live as the man I've been here back in Roswell. Not with too many of the memories there.

They do change though and we've changed. No smart ass comments on that.

[angrycowboy]

Not everyone can. Some people got expectations to live up to
I was in a closet too, remember. Not about sex, but about other things. It's not like I don't get it.

[drmcsexy]

But you're not now. You have people you can trust with the truth and who are there for you.

You know how I feel about staying in this place, but the truth? If not for my mom I don't think I would ever go back to Roswell. The more I learn, the more I see the truth behind everything and I hate it.

[angrycowboy]

Yeah. I get that.
Everything that came out, about Alex's dad, about yours
That must've messed you up.

[drmcsexy]

Yeah, that's all still things I think I just decided not to cope with.

I know, not healthy. Lots have it worse. Hell, Alex alone does. I just have to deal with it.

[angrycowboy]

Alex's dad was already a dick, though. You had a good relationship with yours.

Dealing with the bad in people is a lot easier when you don't expect them to be good.

[drmcsexy]

But I shouldn't have thought that of him. Cheating on my mom. Ignoring Rosa until it was too late to be there for her. Being part of Caulfield. Being an obviously corrupt cop. Turning a blind eye on the man Jesse was to his son. All of it. I was a fool for my entire life.

[angrycowboy]

You were a kid. You shouldn't have to expect that your parents are the bad guys. That isn't on you. It matters what you do with it now that you know. You stood with us at Caulfield. That means something.

[drmcsexy]

In the end he wasn't a good man. There's no reason to put more thought into him and what choices he made. Eventually he made different choices. It doesn't change what we know.

[He hasn't talked about this since he got there, since he told Alex about being shot, but he realizes he hasn't dealt with it. He just wants to close it off again.]

[angrycowboy]

The truth matters. Hell, it mattered to me. It still does.

[drmcsexy]

I can't argue that. I could have gone on without ever knowing. It's just... it makes me think about the man I was and the one I became but I don't want to put excuses there either.

[angrycowboy]

Yeah, but you became a better man even before you found out about your dad. Just cause I didn't see it doesn't mean it wasn't true.

[drmcsexy]

Thanks, Guerin. I mean that. It's all I've wanted.

I think maybe I've lost sight of that.