That must be difficult for you. Is it for your sake or for his that you're keeping it a secret?
Forgive me if that's too personal a question. It's only it made me think of my own circumstance. When I arrived in this city, I found that my sire had years of memories from our world that I did not. It has troubled me to learn of my own actions as if I were a character in a story — to see the consequences of mistakes that I haven't even had the chance to make yet.
I've always wondered whether there is any significance to the things that we remember here.
It is really. We were ordered apart by the city before the change. I don't know how much that holds now, but it's for the best. For both of us. He can have the things he wanted before I think the city stepped in and changed us both.
I don't keep a lot of secrets in this place. They out them anyway. So if someone's willing to listen, there's very few things I'm unwilling to talk about.
That's something I hadn't thought of, though there's many that could tell him about it all. They're welcome to but I see it as two different people. I'm moving on with my life and healing from a lot that happened.
I'm sorry you went through that though. I learned some things from someone from my world, and regret never having gotten the chance to live them.
This world has introduced complications that I never could have imagined. It's unfair, deeply unfair, the amount that they put us through. I'm sorry that happened to you, but I'm glad to hear that you've found some peace.
Two different people? I can see the philosophical merit in that... Perhaps it is even entirely true. Who can say? There are so many very similar worlds, and there are even people here who have met doubles of themselves.
I'm always torn on this place. I've had reasons to want to stay here, but then I have to face how bad things truly are and how much worse they're getting all the time.
Thank you though. I really appreciate it.
It may not be true, but he's been made to forget everything from before so it might be either way but the end result is the same. I'll soldier on though.
Then you're torn for the same reasons I am, it seems. I am happy — as much as I am ever happy or have ever been happy, at least. I have found contentment here, and I've reunited with those who I love dearly. I have been fortunate, by and large.
And it is precisely that good fortune which makes me feel so terribly guilty that I cannot do more to help people in need. There are so many suffering here, and it makes any power I have as a Dominant feel like a mockery. Do you know what I mean?
That's how I feel. Even with the bad that I've been through, the things I've lost and the mistakes I made, the good things outweigh the bad. Knowing I'll lose it all if I leave makes me put up with everything about this place I can.
I know exactly what you mean. We can't make contracts strong enough to protect them, our control over that is only in that they want to let us take that control. They tell us to take this power, and then twist it to prove we don't have that control. I hate it. I really do. If they want me to take this position, then let me protect them as I see fit. Even from this place.
It's good to have someone that understands. All we can do is be there for one another, Louis. Help to do what we can to get through this and keep what we have.
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Not the sire I knew. There's someone here with his name but I think they wiped his memories of his time here before. So no. I'm not telling him.
Of course not. Not an imposition at all. I need to get back into the practice of entertaining, if nothing else.
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Forgive me if that's too personal a question. It's only it made me think of my own circumstance. When I arrived in this city, I found that my sire had years of memories from our world that I did not. It has troubled me to learn of my own actions as if I were a character in a story — to see the consequences of mistakes that I haven't even had the chance to make yet.
I've always wondered whether there is any significance to the things that we remember here.
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I don't keep a lot of secrets in this place. They out them anyway. So if someone's willing to listen, there's very few things I'm unwilling to talk about.
That's something I hadn't thought of, though there's many that could tell him about it all. They're welcome to but I see it as two different people. I'm moving on with my life and healing from a lot that happened.
I'm sorry you went through that though. I learned some things from someone from my world, and regret never having gotten the chance to live them.
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Two different people? I can see the philosophical merit in that... Perhaps it is even entirely true. Who can say? There are so many very similar worlds, and there are even people here who have met doubles of themselves.
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Thank you though. I really appreciate it.
It may not be true, but he's been made to forget everything from before so it might be either way but the end result is the same. I'll soldier on though.
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And it is precisely that good fortune which makes me feel so terribly guilty that I cannot do more to help people in need. There are so many suffering here, and it makes any power I have as a Dominant feel like a mockery. Do you know what I mean?
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I know exactly what you mean. We can't make contracts strong enough to protect them, our control over that is only in that they want to let us take that control. They tell us to take this power, and then twist it to prove we don't have that control. I hate it. I really do. If they want me to take this position, then let me protect them as I see fit. Even from this place.
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