I came to it willingly. I was near death at the time - I thought I wanted that - and Lestat came to me and offered this eternal life instead.
A reason? I'm certain the boy thought he could do it all better than I had. That he could learn from my mistakes and not repeat my tragedies, and that the toll it took on me would never burden him.
A person does have to die to become what we are. It makes sense that it would be a thing done out of desperation and questionable judgment.
I found out much later that he was indeed turned, though it was not done by me. I left him next to death that night to show him what I was and he still was not deterred.
My intention was to attack him, rather than to feed upon him for my own satisfaction. I suspect that is the reason why he lived, as I have only recently had any success with purposeful feeding.
Then at the very least it was unthinking evil, done in service of my own misery. I didn't think of him at all when I used him as my makeshift confessional... I never even asked the boy his name. He would have gone on living his life never knowing that he shared the world with things like me.
And I went on to kill again, just as I always had.
I've witnessed a 1000 years of horror in a moment. I may be young, but I also know that with enough time we have to learn to accept who we can be more than who we've been.
Thank you though. It's the one thing I really hope to always be.
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Least we're not in it alone.
Did you ever think that perhaps there's a reason for that?
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A reason? I'm certain the boy thought he could do it all better than I had. That he could learn from my mistakes and not repeat my tragedies, and that the toll it took on me would never burden him.
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Was he made a vampire?
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I found out much later that he was indeed turned, though it was not done by me. I left him next to death that night to show him what I was and he still was not deterred.
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I saw a 1000 years of murder and pain and destruction and I still did it. No matter what you tried, you couldn't stop it.
But you're saying you didn't kill him. You can harm and not kill then?
[ It was something they have talked about, and something that he wants to be able to help him with. ]
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And I went on to kill again, just as I always had.
You shouldn't be so quick to absolve me.
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Thank you though. It's the one thing I really hope to always be.