Hey so um, he probably already told you, but I just wanted to let you know I slept with Alex. There was definitely some kind of Duplicity shenanigans involved with drugged cocoa, but it was an enjoyable experience.
I don't regret it at all, and I hope he doesn't either. I just know you two are involved, and I didn't want to make things awkward by getting involved with him in a non-city things kind of way.
But I'm glad to know you aren't bothered by it. I just want everyone to be comfortable, and that includes you.
No, it's more me not wanting to step on any toes or not be up front about these things. I just feel better knowing everyone involved is on the same page, you know?
Even leaving aside that it happened because of the city's bs, if you and he continue to have something, it's your decision between you both and not about me.
I figured telling you would be more welcome than you finding out by walking in on us making out in your house or something like that. But maybe I shouldn't have brought it up. I don't know, I'm not used to navigating these things.
I hope I haven't done anything that you would think I'd react poorly. I'm sorry if I have.
It's new to a lot of us. I just dealt with monogamy and jealousy in this place and that is never the man I'll be. Not for anyone, but especially not those I knew before this place. So long as Alex is happy and cared for, it really is his business just as who you chose to be intimate with is yours. You know that, right?
No, you haven't. It's more my own insecurities, if that makes sense. I don't want to upset anyone ever, even if there's no actual reason they would be upset.
And I get it, really. On both points. I just know some people handle things here differently, especially in terms of communication, so I'm learning, I guess.
Understandable, I guess, but I would be the first to tell you that is impossible. You just have to be true to yourself, Barry. You're a good man.
I just never want someone to think I'm being possessive or have any right to tell others who or what they can or can't do. Best friends, boyfriends, even those I'm contracted with. Except maybe patients. I kind of want them to do what I say but that's another story.
If you and Alex find ways to make this place easier on you both, good. Whatever works to help us all get through this.
Oh uh, I don't know if you experienced the whole sharing a heartbeat/thoughts with another person thing, but Sara and I did and having a speedster heartbeat was too much for a normal human to handle. Killing me stopped it. I woke up a few days later, and at least I didn't lose my memories this time.
We're fine physically, but mentally...I don't know. I'm more worried about the fact that she feels like she can't be around me now, and trying to give her the space she needs, but still worrying.
Try texting her regularly? Just little things going on so she knows that all is good? Dying here isn't easy on anyone but I feel for those put in that position.
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Is that okay with you?
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I'm sorry you both got caught up in city things.
Not sure it's any of my business. Not that I'm bothered by it.
Why wouldn't I be okay with it?
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But I'm glad to know you aren't bothered by it. I just want everyone to be comfortable, and that includes you.
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We're friends and I love him and care for him but he's his own man and I would never step in and interfere in his relationships, whatever they are.
Is this because of the contract? I admit, I'm kind of confused. I'm pretty open about the fact that I'm pretty open about my relationships.
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Even leaving aside that it happened because of the city's bs, if you and he continue to have something, it's your decision between you both and not about me.
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It's new to a lot of us. I just dealt with monogamy and jealousy in this place and that is never the man I'll be. Not for anyone, but especially not those I knew before this place. So long as Alex is happy and cared for, it really is his business just as who you chose to be intimate with is yours. You know that, right?
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And I get it, really. On both points. I just know some people handle things here differently, especially in terms of communication, so I'm learning, I guess.
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I just never want someone to think I'm being possessive or have any right to tell others who or what they can or can't do. Best friends, boyfriends, even those I'm contracted with.
Except maybe patients. I kind of want them to do what I say but that's another story.
If you and Alex find ways to make this place easier on you both, good. Whatever works to help us all get through this.
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Patients is fair game I think. ;) But I'm glad to have that settled.
I hope so. We haven't actually had a talk about what happened yet but I really like him.
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Then perhaps you should have that talk. He's a good man, and so are you.
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Here's hoping I don't let my nerves talk me out of it. :)
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I'm so sorry. Is she okay? Are you?
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I admit, I'm thankful I haven't been.
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