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ᴅᴏᴄᴛᴏʀ ᴋʏʟᴇ ᴠᴀʟᴇɴᴛɪ ([personal profile] drmcsexy) wrote2029-04-18 12:57 pm

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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-02 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
You needn't ever apologize to me for a melancholy outlook. You're right, of course — I only wish that I knew some way to prepare for whatever may come.

I am doing as well as I can be, all things considered.
If I may be melancholy myself, the most difficult part was coming back to an empty house.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-03 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, thank you for saying so. I don't know what would help, but it's a relief just to speak to someone.

He was my sire, and my beloved. We were contracted. I had been alone for so many years, and when I found him again in my world, it felt like I was coming back to life.

I need to sell my house, and I need to find new employment. But those things feel so meaningless now.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-03 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Who's to say what I deserve? I feel like such a fool for thinking that I could find happiness in a place like this.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-04 01:49 am (UTC)(link)
You are kind to say so. Even so, I have more than half the population of this city does, and all because I lack a mark around my neck. I don't deserve happiness more than they do. Perhaps this is some cosmic reminder of that.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-04 11:37 am (UTC)(link)
Do you think any of it means anything? The games they play with us?
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-05 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
And we forget everything at the end, or so they say. So this really is all there is while we're here.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-05 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
( an unhappy pause. )

I've never had to consider the quota before.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-05 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, Kyle, that is almost unbearably kind of you to offer. I'm truly touched. I don't know how to express my gratitude, but please know that I feel it from the bottom of my heart.
It isn't that I'm not interested, or rather... it isn't you that I'm not interested in. I think you are generous and thoughtful and handsome and appealing, and I think if my thoughts were not such a tangle, I would find you almost impossible to refuse.


( which is to say, louis is well aware that kyle is the sort of vampire he might develop romantic feelings toward, if things were different. if the timing was better. or perhaps if louis just had better taste in men. )

How do I put this without sounding prudish?

One peculiarity of vampires in my world is that we cannot experience intimacy as humans do. That is to say, since we as a species do not reproduce through natural means, we lose both the urge and the ability to have sexual intercourse. The desire for closeness is still there, but the instincts I have now are so different than when I was a man. Some vampires take mortal lovers, and play at what they used to have... but for 200 years, the only physical intimacy I ever had was when I felt my mortal victims' lives slip away.

The powers that be here in Duplicity have restored my body's ability, but my desires remain unchanged. It has never been an easy thing for me to be close to someone. I don't know why.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-05 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
I suppose you're right. That is something to consider.

God, I'm so sorry — I know you didn't ask to hear any of this, but I wanted to explain myself to you. I was so reticent with you in the hospital, and I've felt terribly guilty ever since.

I've only ever shared blood with a handful of people, you see. And it has always been in the context of, well, romance. And with Lestat so recently gone, and things as chaotic as they were, and my own loneliness and fear... I was afraid that I would taint one of the few purely good things I've ever done as a vampire with my own selfish instincts.

I'm still so glad you came to me. I truly am.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-07 12:32 pm (UTC)(link)
( this much unexpected kindness when he's feeling so down and so alone — louis doesn't know what to do with himself. it takes him a moment to compose a response, especially with the sudden tears springing to his eyes. )

I don't know. I suspect it would, but I've never allowed myself to try. We gain power through the blood of those stronger and older than ourselves, you see, and I have seen the toll that the change takes. I want no part of it.
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-08 04:25 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad that you understand so much of what I mean without my needing to explain. You've given me much to consider, and I thank you for that.

I have no plans to be disobedient, at any rate. I loathe the system on principle, but there are far worse things they could ask of me. It's only that I haven't had to think of it before.


( and it's a reminder of who he's missing. but that feels like too much to say. )
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[personal profile] deathoftheauthor 2021-05-09 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
You've been so kind to me, though you hardly know me at all. I really can't tell you how grateful I am.

I would like to get to know you better. I will strive to keep my sullen demeanor in check when we next meet, so that we may discuss lighter topics.

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